the 'feeling' is back

Tonight I have a deep sence of dispair,
why? I just read an email from the person I send my resume and cover leter to last week. I saw that I made a f* error in her name. What are my chances of getting picked now? If she's uptight: none I guess.

fucking hell why?
Why do I alway have to fuck up?

this is so stupid this is almost funny.
I so wish I had a stable, mid thirties kind of job now.
I gained about ten-fifteen pounds I am so stressed.
why?

please save my soul.